Scripts of Life

For now

2011-04-03T23:09:00.003+08:00

Wow, it has been months since I last updated my blog....

Memories brought me back here again. Gone were those days of frequently hanging out with friends, attending and planning to skip classes, spontaneous outings and movies...

I really miss those days of having nothing to worry about, except for exams and getting the right grades. But as people grow, so do responsibilities.

Probably I'm having too much thoughts running through my mind. Internship is coming to an end soon. In less than a month, I would have to make decisions, plan where I should go.

The thought of it scares me, because no one would know what the future holds.

But for now, I am enjoying my life. Sure, I have had my own ups and downs for the past 5 months. And I have learned so much along the way. Whatever pushed you down or made you fall, makes you a stronger person.

Wherever life takes me, I know I am going to reach my own dreams someday. It's only a matter of time.

For now, I just want to live the moment and have the best of the days. =)

Have a great week ahead! :)

Missing piece

2011-01-14T00:10:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it made me wonder what is still missing from my life. Don't get me wrong. I'm happy and contented with life at the moment but somehow there is this feeling that my life is incomplete.

Could it be that I could not see or imagine where I would be in the future? Or was it the aimlessness self that I am that made me feel so?

I know I need some adventures...just to spice up my life. But until then, let me do some soul searching to figure out what is missing from my life...to find the missing puzzle and put it back to the right place.

Until then, enjoy life & embrace it. =)

Have a great weekend!

“One Step Closer to the Maxis Om Nom Nom Race"

2011-01-09T14:59:00.003+08:00

2010 was awesome. But here comes 2011. What could be more exciting than taking part in an exciting, Amazing Race-like food challenge race, "The Maxis On Nom Nom Race"?

I definitely want to be part of this race because it would be a great and memorable way to start off the year. Plus, I'm a foodie. So this would be a good opportunity for me to try out various dishes at different locations. And of course, it would be an added bonus if I managed to win some fabulous prizes. =)

The prizes for the contest include:

1st Prize: A 3D 2N trip to Hong Kong with 5-star accommodation (for the winning team members of 4 pax) worth RM10,000, and also 4 x smartphones (1 per winning member)
2nd Prize: 4 x smartphones (1 per winning member)

Attractive ain't it? Want to know more about the race? The details are as follows:

Date: 15 January 2011 (Saturday)
Venue: Modesto’s, Ground Floor, Capital Square, 7 Persiaran CapSquare 50100, Kuala Lumpur
Time: 8am-7pm (all participants must register before 9am)
Dress code: customized “The Maxis Om Nom Nom Race” T-shirts will be provided (I want S size please...)

Afraid of being lost or not being able to locate the restaurants? Fret not. Participants of the race are provided with an IPhone for each team with Maxis Finder301 Application whereby users can access to information on food, restaurants, banks, clinics and police stations around them without any hassle.

Not only that, each team will be provided with a Maxis Wireless Broadband so that participants can update their blogs throughout the race.

So what are you waiting for? Sign up for the Maxis Om Nom Nom Race now!

I hope to be there. And I hope to see you there too!

Good luck!

Am just speechless

2010-12-08T19:52:00.002+08:00

There you are, standing right in front of me

and yet I don't know what to say...

Have you ever felt that way?

It felt weird

because I have so much to say

yet the words just won't come out.

Is it because of a hard day?

Or was it because I have given up on hope

and learn to embrace my life as it is,

not hoping for more

and settling for complacency.

Whatever it is

life goes on

and as far as I know

each day will get better

if I am positive enough.

After all,

it's just another day of life,

just like any other ordinary day.

I want to be as cheerful as I used to be,

if you know me well,

you should know that I'm wearing a fake smile.

Time out,

~vin yee~

Maybe there's a better day ahead...

2010-11-25T23:07:00.004+08:00

How's life so far?

That's the most common question that pops up when we try to catch up with friends. While everyone seems to be busy and enjoying their internship, I, on the other hand, was not learning or progressing much.

It seems like I have been doing more of admin work than anything else; typing, writing, filing....I don't know why. Maybe I give out this impression that I was not able to handle anything more than that.

On a brighter note, maybe it was a good thing after all. At least I'm not as tired.

And there is less risk of mistakes.

Maybe God wants me to have an easier life...

Or maybe he has something else in store...

Maybe it is better to learn bits by bits...before everything sums up to a big picture.

Maybe this way I will have a better insight to what makes up the word audit...

Maybe....

Just maybe...

but what if this is all I learn for the next 5 months...

Maybe I'm just being too positive....

Maybe I'm just not fit for this field...

Or maybe I just don't live up to expectations of those who are guiding me...

Maybe...

Maybe I'm worrying too much...

or maybe I'm thinking too much...

maybe we should just leave this crap aside.

Whatever it is, I always believe there is a better day.

And I leave everything in God's hands.

The sun will always shine after the rain. It always does.

Let's hope for a great day and a wonderful weekend. =)

Looking forward to a sunny day!

~vinyee~

Inspire me...

2010-11-18T22:57:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wish I were intelligent enough to know the solutions to every question or problem...

But I am not...

No one's perfect but I felt like I'm taking way too long to learn...

Maybe I'm just not as capable as I have always thought I would be...

If only there's someone by my side to help me through...

Even if there is, would you be by my side to give me the strength & inspiration that I need?

Blessed

2010-11-06T23:36:00.003+08:00

I feel so blessed, at this moment. Right now.

There's nothing more that I could wish for.

Thank you for all that you have done and given me, mom & dad.

Thank you Lord for all Your blessings.

New journey

2010-10-30T09:58:00.004+08:00

Was awake for the whole night... a sign of caffeine overdose from the coffee perhaps?

Since I couldn't sleep, I decided to join mom and dad for breakfast on a rainy morning. Lovely weather, and yet I couldn't fall asleep.

I can't believe that one month had passed by just like that. It's been a great month idling my time away at home, hanging out with friends and spending quality moments with my family.

Holiday is coming to an end which means it's time to face reality. A new chapter of life is awaiting to be discovered. I will start my internship in 2 days (oh no, I'm joining the workforce-boy, am I getting old).

Gone were those days of late-night outs, the silly things that I do with friends and stressing ourselves out during exams. Well, everything comes and goes.

I could neither imagine nor predict what lies ahead of me. A future full of possibilities and uncertainties. I don't know where I would see myself 5 years from now (I tend to think too far away, don't I?)

All I know is I want to learn as much as I could, keep my spirit up and have a wonderful and memorable journey. Am looking forward to the challenges waiting ahead of me.

I hope I can adapt to a life so different from now. After all, a month of holidays made me so pampered and lazy to do anything. =p

And yes, I still miss those days in university. But it is a past now, what remains are just memories that I will cherish.

I miss running at the tracks in campus...

Hoping and praying for a great journey as I begin a new chapter of life.

All the best to each one of you!

~vinyee~

Garden of Life

2010-10-27T18:55:00.005+08:00

I got this email from a friend which I think is quite meaningful.

It might be a useful guide to living you life. =)

How to Plant Your Garden.

For the garden of your daily living;

Plant 3 rows of PEAS.

Peace of mind.
Peace of heart.
Peace of soul.

Plant 4 rows of SQUASH.

Squash gossip.
Squash indifference.
Squash grumbling.
Squash selfishness.

Plant 4 rows of LETTUCE.

Let us be faithful.
Let us be kind.
Let us be patient.
Let us love one another.

No garden is without TURNIPS.

Turn up for meetings.
Turn up to help one another.

To conclude our garden, we must have TIME.

Time for each other.
Time for family.
Time for friends.

On top of that, water your plants with PATIENCE and cultivate with LOVE.

There is much fruit in your garden because you reap what you sow.

Be patient and stay positive. Someday, you may find a beautiful garden when the flowers start blooming.

Source: Unknown

-vinyee-

Eventually

2010-10-04T18:35:00.002+08:00

Eventually, it has come to an end.

It's....

Time for a new start.

Time to rediscover myself.

Time to begin a new journey.

Time to set myself free.

Eventually, I managed to set my heart, mind & soul free.

Eventually.

Sometimes

2010-09-29T20:09:00.001+08:00

Charming bracelet

2010-09-21T21:53:00.003+08:00

If only I can have this charm bracelet for my birthday...

It's so delicate...

Okay, it's just a dream.

Back to studying.

Chill out & all the best peeps! =)

Sticky-sticky notes

2010-09-18T13:06:00.006+08:00

I don't know when I started picking up the habit of putting sticky notes right in front of me whenever I'm studying.

I would scribble some motivational words for myself and stick it on my table, so that I'd see it all the time.

In a way, it gives me motivation whenever I needed it.

And it comes in pretty handy too when I needed life quotes that will get me to move on with life....

Especially when there are definitely things bothering you.

It's time to really put in more efforts to do well in the very last finals...

and to escape from everything!

Wish me luck!

~vinyee~

Living life-letting go

2010-09-17T02:15:00.003+08:00

Life is unexpected at times, and when things start to get out of hands, we tend to give up in frustration because we tried to hold on to our plans for as long as we can and refused to give in to changes.

And the tighter we hold on to things, the more it is going to fall out of our GRIPs.

Loosen up that grip and learn to LET GO at the right moments. The best is yet to come. Sometimes you just have to take the risks and overcome you fear of uncertainties.

You may end up loving the life that lies ahead of you.

~vinyee~

Timeless

2010-09-11T00:16:00.001+08:00

Oh baby, love is timeless.

Love this song so much! Wonderful singers! =)

~vinyee~

F.R.I.E.N.D.

2010-09-03T01:16:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if true friends really exist.

True friends who will be there for you when you need them the most, who will help you through your hard times and share your happiness together.

There are so many different types of friends that you will meet in your life.

For one, there are friends for benefits-those who only befriend you and treat you well only when they have some intentions of gain benefits from the friendship.

And then there are hi-bye-friends whom you will meet every now and then on your way to class, work, in the neighbourhood, etc. and as the given name, you will only drop by to say hi and bye. Or maybe ask "How was your day?" or "How are you?" provided if you have a little time to chat.

Then again, you may have met a few friends and bond with them since you were young, those we called childhood friends who may understand you the most because you grew up together. They could then when you are upset even if you are putting a smile on your face because they know when you smile sincerely from the heart and when you are not.

There are those whom you get to know from friends of friends and you hang out once in a while, the mutual friends. These friends may share common interests yet they are not close enough to be with you all the time.

Not to forget the self-centred friends who only think for themselves. These people are cool to hang out with until they turn their backs on you when things go wrong in order to protect themselves.

So what does FRIEND really stand for?
True friends are hard to come by. And when you found them, keep them close to you because they will be there for you no matter what. Like the quote above, friends feel comfortable together even in great silence and they can understand you from the inside out.

If you found someone who stands by you most of the time, even when the whole world turned its back on you, appreciate them, because they are the best of friends that you can have.

You may have plenty of friends but best friends, there are only a few of them who will stick by your side till the very end.

And while I may have met all of them, it's still heartbreaking when some people just don't appreciate you as much the way you do appreciate them.

All I hope for is to have true friends and to be appreciated in the same way that I cherish them.

I love all my friends and I hope they felt the same too.

-vinyee-

30 days....

2010-09-01T01:00:00.002+08:00

And then there's only 30 days....

2 weeks of classes left...

with only one class left to attend.

1 week of study break.

1 week of finals.

All in exactly one month.

Come 30th September, it would be the very last day of uni life and a different journey from then onwards.

Hopefully life would be a smooth sailing, starting right here, right now.

Final push...

2010-08-23T14:02:00.002+08:00

This is what I am now...

Finals is a month away, and as usual, the month before finals would be the most occupied one with assignment deadlines to meet and midterm tests. Glad that the tests are over 2 weeks ago, but there are tonnes of research needed to be done for the assignments!

Can't wait until I'm done with all the assignments and the very last finals for my uni life. By then, all the weight that I've been carrying on my back would be lifted off!

Speaking of deadlines, I have set one for myself too. A deadline to start anew. Until then, I will leave everything in God's hands.

Have a great day!

*Signing off*

~vinyee~

Life A Crazy Ride...........

2010-08-17T17:04:00.002+08:00

Michelle Branch is back! Better than ever. Here's an awesome one!

Celebrate life! =)

Some reflections...

2010-08-16T16:42:00.005+08:00

I'm counting down to the day that I'm finally leaving the university. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm not enjoying the days I had in uni, in fact, I love each and every moment I've had.

It has been more than 3 years since I first stepped into this place, and I only have one and a half month left...

This place has left me with so much memories,
both happy and sad.

This place has taught me more life lessons than before,
I have learned so much,
I hope I'm wiser than I used to be.

I have met so many people along the way,
so many wonderful ones,
and I hope our friendship lasts.

There are things that I wish I should have done,
and things that I wish I hadn't,
but it's impossible to turn back time,
whatever that has been said or done,
or not,
is history now.

All said and done, let's make the best out of the remaining days in university. The past is history, but we can always create a better tomorrow for what would be lasting memories.

Like where life always take us to, the choice is yours, whether to live in the past, or to live the moment and make the future a brighter, happier one.

some of the wonderful people I've met...

As for now, I'm contented with all that I have. And to my beloved friends, all the best in your future undertakings!

Happy to have all of you in my life. =)

Words to live by:
You can't change the past,
but you can write your future.

~vinyee~

Thank You

2010-08-08T23:44:00.004+08:00

I am supposed to be studying but I just couldn't get anything into my head. So I decided to take a break to blog.
Thank you...simple words yet they mean a lot, at least they are to me.

I still remember the day we got to know each other while waiting at the admission office 3 years back. It was his first day there, to register and enroll himself in this university. I took the initiative to introduce myself, and we became friends.

As time passed by, we hardly keep in touch with one another, each busy with our own lives and friends.

But I got a Thank You note from him one day, saying he was glad to know me and that he's graduating. To know that someone actually appreciates what you have done, that feeling was indescribable. It's great to know that you have actually made an impact on someone's life. And I've never expected to receive that.

I am happy that he still remembers me, even until the day he graduated.

Thank you for the note because you showed me what a friend truly meant and how certain things do make a difference in others' lives.

If you happen to stumble across this entry, I sincerely wish you all the best in your future undertakings. Congratulations on your graduation.

And I'm glad to be a friend of yours too.

vinyee

Back again!

2010-08-02T19:22:00.003+08:00

I'm back!!

It's sooner than I thought.

And it's already August. In less than 3 months, I will be entering the working world. Gosh, how I wish time would slow down a little bit so that I can have some time to rest and relax, as in a quiet getaway!

Had a restless one-week holiday at home. Moved in to a new place called home about two weeks ago and it's like living in a makeshift house with the on-going renovations and everything is still in a mess, with boxes and packages all over the floor. Hope they can get the renovations done in this coming 2 weeks.

There isn't any internet connection at home yet and I actually survived the week without internet. Gosh, what an achievement. I thought I could not survive but I did (but the consequences were great, mailbox was filled with junk mails, and I missed a few important mails).

No internet connection, no TV in the afternoon, no transport...etc...how did I utilize my one week?

Simple, go to bed early, wake up early, sleep again, brunch, chat with mom, study a bit, dinner, watch TV and sleep.

That was basically what I did throughout the week. Glad that I managed to catch up with some friends and cousins.

And saying that, I am back!

For real. I found myself again! =)

Time to plan something out for life, especially for October. Will be having a month of holidays, time for some travelling. There are so many things that I wanted to do. I had to make sure that the plan is perrrrrrrrfectttt and that it works. The last long holidays I would have before I begin another new chapter of life.

And to those who have just graduated, all the best in your future undertakings!

~vinyee~

Taking a break...

2010-07-16T16:14:00.011+08:00

Will be taking a break from blogging....

Hope that this break will give me what I need.
So tired of being bugged by some memories.
I wish I could erase them easily,
like words written on sand being washed away by the waves hitting the shores.

Time to put an end to my endless thoughts.

Until then, will be away from here....

Have a great weekend.

The good ol' days...

2010-06-30T21:21:00.004+08:00

I'm back again! This blog has always been the place I come to when I'm down, happy, upset or just plainly to put up another entry for fun. Lately though, it's been lacking of updates. Everyone is so occupied with World Cup, not to mention I, myself, is one of them who stayed up all the way until 4.30am just to watch some of the matches. NOT all of them, I'm not that fanatic(by the way, Spain got through to the quarter finals! Yays!! =D ).

And World Cup does some good in a way, it has brought my friends and I back together again. Ever since this semester started, everyone seems to be so occupied with their own things that we do not hang out as often as we used to be anymore. Sometimes, we meet each other for an hour or two only in a day and that was during lectures! No after hours hanging around, lunches or dinners together.

Honestly, I don't like it at all. I missed those days when we used lo laugh away the hours, talking and making fun of each other, watching movies or go on outings. I missed all of those....

This is the last semester that we have left to spend time with each other. 3 months to be exact. I really wish that we could all hang out like we used to be, doing crazy things and share the beautiful memories that we create like AFC (something like a club that we've created among our fellow coursemates purely because they say accountants are boring to prove that we can be fun too).

Those were the good old days...

Birthday celebration...

Dinner from time to time...

@ i-CIty with fellow AFC-ians

Oh well, people do change. Maybe it's time to move on with life. I really hope that we can relive those days again before we go our own separate ways and carry on with our future plans.

Anyways, life goes on. For now, let's just live the moment and be happy!

~vinyee~

Stay Happy

2010-06-14T13:44:00.005+08:00

Life laughs at you when you are unhappy...

Life smiles at you when you are happy...

Life salutes you when you make others happy...

So keep on smiling because you never know how much it can do for others.

No matter how tough the days are, there will always be better days that are yet to come.

Have a wonderful week ahead!

~vinyee~

For a second time

2010-06-07T17:30:00.006+08:00

New semester just started and to wrap up my holidays, it was an unexpected one. I was supposed to spend the holidays at home to help pack up and clean the house, but I ended up spending my last two weeks of holidays in campus, without a laptop with me and being disconnected from the cyber world.

Nope, I didn't complete my to-do list but I had an awesome 2 weeks even though I was sleep-deprived, got a sunburn and blisters on my feet. I was in uni the past 2weeks, helping out in orientation. Seeing how the freshies were inspired by the whole committee, I had no regrets being part of the Orientation Committee for a second time. All the sacrifices were worth it.

Thanks for the beautiful memories. This may be my last orientation and I am glad that the committee was able to inspire these people who are about to begin a new chapter of life.

I wish I had more time to get to know them...Group 7

May the spirit continue on....

Live & inspire.

~vinyee~

A brand new look

2010-05-19T15:36:00.003+08:00

Got my blog a new look after such a long time.

I've been blogging so infrequently these days as I was getting bored of the previous blogskin. It takes away my inspiration every time I wanted to blog. It looks much better now, simple and woody (probably I love the nature too much =p).

One thing accomplished on my to-do list for this semester break.

I don't have much plans for this holidays.

Things To-DO:

Read a novel (working on it-not even 10% done).
Learn how to cook.
Clean up & reorganise my room.
Reorganise the files in my lappie.
Meet up with friends.
Reinvent my blog. (Check)
A short trip/outdoor activity? (no idea for now, Skytrex maybe?)

That's all for now. Hope I can accomplish all the tasks. *fingers crossed*

~vinyee~

Can't wait

2010-05-05T10:00:00.002+08:00

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Can't wait until that day comes when I'd be both happy & sad.

For now, I just can't wait to get over my finals!

I SO hate the stress & pressure.

Til then, back to studies!

Have a nice day & good luck to everyone. =)

~vinyee~with her usual ramblings...LOLs

Arghhh

2010-05-03T11:21:00.004+08:00

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I couldn't sit around and pretend nothing had happened.

SOMEBODY, please help me to get over it!

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Stupid mistake

2010-04-30T14:45:00.003+08:00

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I made a mistake.

A silly one.

Call me stupid or naive.

Wake up, Vin Yee.

Stupid me.

Learn from your own mistakes, darling. *been telling myself the past few days*

Enough of everything.

*end of story*

p/s: Sorry for the ramblings, but I just figured out how silly I was. And it's a harsh wake-up call?
Whatever.

Randomness

2010-04-27T11:54:00.006+08:00

I'm longing to travel to a place that's quiet, with a magnificent sunset and a place I can spend some time to reflect.

A place like this....

'Til then, have a great day!

~vinyee~

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Gave It All Away

2010-04-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

A wonderful song by Boyzone, Gave It All Away.

Leadership Camp

2010-04-15T01:23:00.004+08:00

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It's been quite some time since I last updated my blog. Like what most writers faced, it came to a time where you lack of the passion to blog or simply don't have the time to.

This post should be due long ago.

Leadership Camp was the last event I organised in my uni life, which also marked the end of my participation in any events. It's time to totally let go of everything and enjoy the rest of my uni life.

Camp was a blast, I enjoyed myself and I hoped everyone did. Even though there were some problems with the transportation, everything else went well. Thanks to my 2 other organising committee.

I guess we went through and learnt a lot along the way, as we planned the camp. The memories of the whole camp is priceless, something which I can look back on and say I'm glad I was part of it.

High rope activity...and yet, he still managed to pose...

Pond rafting....when everyone else was busy tying the bamboo sticks together... =p

The great people to hang out with...friends till the very end

Us...as a whole.

It was an awesome experience. Looking forward to more of such activities.

Till then! Have a great weekend!!

~vinyee~

Tough times....

2010-03-31T10:21:00.003+08:00

It's one of those moments again in life when there are too many things going on that tiny things can make you snap.

So much has happened over the past week that I couldn't take it all in and digest everything.

And at one point, I snapped and take it all out on someone for some really small matter.

And I just realised how bad I've been.

And totally regretted it because it's just rude.

And I'm SORRY.

I wanted to talk to someone so badly but I haven't had the chance or couldn't find the right person.

And I know at this point I have to.

Or I'll lose my sanity.

So forgive me for the time being if I've hurt anyone.

-vinyee-

Updates for the week...

2010-03-18T01:26:00.002+08:00

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I'm trying so hard to study but I couldn't concentrate so here I am, a bottle of jumbled-up feelings.

The week started off well. Signed the official offer letter with KPMG. I'll be undergoing internship with KPMG starting from November. It's a bit early but an early placement means one less thing to worry about. =)

And some of my friends will be in the same firm too, which is great! At least I know I'm not alone.

As for the bad news, the bruise (a more accurate description of the injury is a wound that is a mixture of a cut, bruise and swelling) on my knee is killing me. It aches every now and then.

How did I get it? I slipped and fell at the staircase during camp. I'm hoping that it doesn't leave a scar. *fingers crossed*

And I found out that my application for a place in hostel was not successful. Hmm, which gives me a reason to move out. Good or bad? You deicde. =p

To top it all off, I have 2 midterm exams next week. Plus rehearsal and other extraordinary activities, I felt like bit and pieces of me are all over the place. I hope I can do well despite the fact that I don't have much time for revision. (how is that possible? Doing well without studying? =p)

So if you ask me how has my week been, my answer would be aworrisomepain (awesome+worry+pain).

Well, isn't that what life is all about?

As long as I'm happy and positive, things would turn out fine. =)

*me enjoying uni life to the max*

Till then, I'm signing off.

Dare to live, love and dream! =)

~vinyee~

Short one...

2010-03-10T12:54:00.002+08:00

Whoopsssieeeeee...

It's been a long, long time since I last updated my blog. I guess I'm going through what some of the bloggers do at times, lack of passion or writer's block at the moment.

Busy, busy, busy....

Life is so busy lately.

Let me update on what I've done the past month:
-Charity Drive
-Workshop
-Leadership Camp
-Interview
-reunion dinner with coursemates
-outings with them too
-etc...

It's my second last semester in uni, just wanna have fun and make the best out of it.

Until then, ciaoz!!

More updates when I have more time! (Random post just to keep my blog alive)

Trip Down to JB & Kukup

2010-02-06T23:41:00.006+08:00

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I've always wanted to go to Singapore during Christmas just to see the decors. Finally got a chance to make the trip down south after much planning by my dearest coursemates.

We made our journey to Johor Bahru before heading to Kukup, a fishing village famous for its fresh seafood and homestay and our final destination, Singapore for the New Year countdown. The journey to JB is my longest solo journey on public transport-all this while I've always had company.

Departed on the 28th Dec early in the morning and arrived in JB around noon. Headed for lunch where our host, also my roomie, brought my friend Shin Yi and I to a restaurant well-known for its fish ball mee. We then went to City Square to shop while waiting for the others to arrive.

Shopping time@ City Square

Met up with the others and went for dinner at Roost Cafe. The atmosphere and environment was awesome, with antiques decors and dim lightings.It was unique in its own way. It's a good place to hang out with friends, not to mention the delicious smoothies and great food.

Dinner with beloved friends @ JB

Antique decors at the cafe...

Delicious banana smoothie(recommended) =)

Nasi lemak with chicken wings(honey-coated)

Our next destination, Kukup, is a big contrast from JB. It's a fishing village still without proper sewage system. Having grown up in a city, I've never expected to see taxis of the 60's or 70's, blue and without air-conditioning, and also dysfunctional speedometers. It was an eye-opening experience living in a house without proper sewage system, where your wastes go directly into the sea...(whoops...contribution to the environment in a way, as they are food to fish?)

A glance at Kukup...

Nevertheless, it was an enjoyable stay. We had the opportunity to taste fresh seafood and BBQ dinner prepared by the owner of the house we rented. We were stuffed with food throughout our stay. For only RM 80 per person, the package, which is inclusive of a tour to kelong (a place for rearing fish), lunch, tea, dinner and breakfast, was worth every cent that we paid.

And did I mention that the house has air-conditioning and also a Karaoke? It meant a comfortable stay with endless singing if you would like to. A nice getaway for the weekend if you would like to idle away. You can catch a bus from the Larkin bus station to Pontian for around RM8.50 for a two way ticket, and from Pontian to Kukup by taxi for only RM 5 per person.

BBQ dinner

The place we stayed in @ Kukup

It was a great experience.

Next up, trip to Singapore...to be continued....

The other meaning of SAD

2010-02-01T16:45:00.004+08:00

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I learned another meaning of the word SAD from a friend.

According to him, the meaning of SAD is:

S= single

A= available

D= desperate

In short, a SAD person is one who's single, available & desperate.

I have to say, he's good with words. Sincerely.

And he says I'm SAD because I'm still single. It may be true, but minus the D.

Happy Valentine's Day in advance to all the lovely couples out there.

And to those singles out there, enjoy your single life. It's when you have total freedom. =)

xoxo

For the New Year...

2010-01-17T14:26:00.002+08:00

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First entry for the year 2010.

This is a bit late but Happy New Year!! 2 weeks into new year and I can't wait to see what is in store for me this year.

Let's start off with what is going to be new for me this year.

I'm going for internship in June, so the first few months are going to be stressful what with all the job applications and interviews.
Internship also means my friends and I are going separate ways, but I still hope that we can maintain the strong bond we have.
Some of my close friends are graduating...I'm happy for them but at the same time, it means I have to be more independent.

With a new year comes new resolutions too, and this year, I'm keeping it simple. My resolutions include:

Find a good firm for my internship.
Maintain a healthy lifestyle and exercise consistently, a 30-minute jog once a week or a swim is good enough. (which is not an easy task for me =p)
Be positive all the time.
Spend more quality time with friends and family.

Let's hope for the best for the year 2010. May all of you have a wonderful year ahead. =)

Till then, I'm signing off.

Xmas....

2009-12-20T16:06:00.003+08:00

Christmas is just 5 days away...

Can't wait until that day comes!

But in the meantime, I have to study for finals which ends on Christmas eve. (Sad right? But thank God, this year I get to celebrate it. Believe it or not, I spent the past 2 years of Christmas studying and having my finals!)

Just a short one here to wish everyone a Merry Christmas in advance! =)

It's the season of giving and forgiveness, so do ask for forgiveness and apologise for what you've done wrong. And of course, be generous too by forgiving others. =)

And here's a song for everyone this Xmas, David Archuleta, Melodies of Christmas.

Merry Christmas 2009!!

May all of you have a blessed one. =)

Life's A Journey

2009-12-14T14:29:00.004+08:00

Here's a motivational song for everyone especially to those who are facing tough times or having their exams.

A classic song, The Journey by 911(if you still remember them.)

This song came with meaningful lyrics too.

The Journey by 911
Time waits for no one, sure as the tide pulls the ocean
Sure as, the path that's been chosen, cannot be changed
In my life's destination, I searched for the explaination
For some kind of reason, for my sorrow and pain
But in my isolation I learned to listen
To be thankful for the love that I'd been given

[Chorus]
This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried
As the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams
Alive

In my desperation I swore that never again
Would I hear all the laughter of my friends and my family
A million tears that I'd cried then began to dry
In the silence of the night time I had came to realize
A sweet inspiration filled my horizon
Gave me the heart to go on and never would give in

This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried
As the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams
Alive

I'm going to love each moment, of every day and night
I'll look back to the past with the sweetest smile
For now I realise, I've been given the key to life
I've been kissed by the angel by my side

This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried
As the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams
Alive
To bring my dreams alive
To bring my dreams alive

Never give up because obstacles are part of the journey of life.

~vinyee~

November 30th it is...

2009-11-30T10:33:00.005+08:00

I came across this song while I was blog-hopping and fell in love with it immediately.

It's a song by Boys Like Girls feat Taylor Swift, Two is Better than One.

Don't worry, I'm not heartbroken or anything. I just think that this is a nice song and worth sharing.

Last day of November. Time flies!

Am looking forward to wrapping up the year and starting a new one, one which is unpredictable and with so much new possibilities. Will be going for internship soon and I'm hoping to start it right.(*keep my fingers crossed*)

Until then, enjoy the remaining days of 2009! =)

~vinyee~

Random facts about life

2009-11-24T21:46:00.007+08:00

Isn't it ironic that.....

Happy moments seem to come to an end quickly, but life with a heavy heart seems never-ending.

It's happy moments like this that we should all appreciate...

Opportunities stand right before your eyes when you feel like giving up. So, never give up.You never know how much determination can pay off.

When you feel like you have let go of something, the past came and haunt you.

You can lie to anyone but yourself because at the end of the day, you can never escape from your own feelings.

No matter how tough the days are, it will finally come to an end because life is a cycle. You may be at the bottom one moment, but at the peak the next.

Some lessons I learnt in life.

The key towards success is...

PERSEVERANCE.

The road to happiness is...

BEING YOURSELF.

The secret to a strong and lasting relationship is...

TRUST.

As the saying goes, "when life gives you a lemon, make a lemonade out of it."

Smile even though life may be sour at the moment, because you never know how many smiles you will put on others' faces.

Love,

~vinyee~

Life-The way it is

2009-11-17T16:13:00.004+08:00

I'm HAPPY for being ALIVE

yet SAD at the same time for some people who are trying to HURT me

but

I'm GRATEFUL that I have FAMILY & FRIENDS who will always love me for who I am

and I'm THANKFUL for having a GOOD HEALTH.

There are times when life seems so unfair, or there are things that make you sad but THAT'S LIFE.
Appreciate everything that you have and hold on tight, and you will see the sunshine again.

~LOVE LIFE FOR EVERYTHING THAT IT IS.~

Life is beautiful as the way it is.

Make it a point to stay happy always!! =)

xoxo,

~vinyee~

Never stop loving

2009-11-13T03:30:00.007+08:00

There's a saying that you will never stop loving a person because if you do, then it's not love.

If you love a person, you will accept he or she for who he or she is, both strength and weaknesses.

If you love a person, you will still love the person no matter how much he or she has hurt you.

If you love a person, learn to accept that person as a whole and never stop loving the person...

Love,

~vinyee~

Mars vs Venus

2009-11-11T09:37:00.003+08:00

Men are so clueless sometimes.
Women are so indecisive at times.

Men fear of rejection
Women fear of picking up the wrong guy...

Men are casual
Women are particular about things...

Men are naturally good speakers
Women will always be good listeners

I know this is so random. Allow me to be for once. =p
This may not apply to all people, and if you beg to differ, please feel free to comment. =)

Time to change

2009-10-28T18:49:00.003+08:00

There is a price to pay for every single thing that you gain.

Hate to believe it, but that's the ugly truth.

For all the fun and pleasure that I've had for the past 6 months,

I traded them with my grades...

This has been, by far, the worst grades I have ever gotten.

Sure, it feels good to be out and about,

enjoying each and every moment of life

but with the price paid,

it may not be worthy at all.

I am too naive to believe that a person can have the best of everything

without sacrificing anything.

And once again I was proven wrong.

I thought I could be less than a perfectionist,

to see my grades slide and not worry,

but it turned out that I couldn't see my world being less than perfect.

It may be a little too late now.

It's time to revert back to being Little-Miss-Perfectionist-Goody-Two-Shoes-Who-Always-Study-Hard-to-Do-Well-In-Studies...

So, yeah, from now on, less time on the internet, more studying, and less hanging out with friends.

Beautiful September

2009-10-13T23:28:00.005+08:00

September...
The month when fall begins
The month I was born
The month I lost one of my closest relative

Bittersweet September...
It's the month I discovered how to be strong
when the world seems so impossible,
And look at the positive side of things
Because there lies beauty in everything
Just like the falling leaves during autumn
The trees may be bare
But it's a beautiful sight to behold

If you would just stop
Take a deep breath
And look around you
You would never know what you would find

Sometimes you just have to let life lead you
And appreciate the path you've gone through
You may be surprised by what life has to offer

Learn to embrace life
Love with all your heart and soul
And never fail to dream
Those are the things that make your life colourful
Like the leaves on a tree
during autumn
on one fine day in September.

Wish granted...

2009-10-12T23:47:00.003+08:00

I got the smiley I wanted for my birthday.

Ain't it cute?

It brightens up any day just by looking at it. =)

And it takes away all the negative feelings.

Though it arrived a bit late...

And not the size of a pillow,

It's the best gift.

It's what I wished for.

Thanks a lot babe.

Love ya loads!!!

xoxo,

~vinyee~

Trying & still trying...

2009-09-29T03:54:00.005+08:00

The entry should have been written long ago....

been trying to express my feelings but always find myself facing a blank page in the end.

And it is always at odd hours that I managed to really sit down and think things over.

But this time around it's not easy to get over with it.

It seems like letting go is not as easy as it seems,

especially when it keeps appearing in your life,

or you try so hard

that you are not letting go, but holding on.

It's time to move on,

and I wish that I could without taking any moment longer,

somehow I know I will find my way,

like what a friend of mine says,

you will only be good at finding your own way out when you get into troubles.

It's just a matter of time...

So, in the meantime, I'm just going to take one step at a time,

and hope that I would finally be able to let go of what I've been wanting to.

It hurts,

it pains,

it makes my heart aches,

but I'm only a human,

I'll let my feelings show...

Be proud that you are able to face the world,

with your very own true feelings,

because not everyone does.

~vinyee~

SmiLey Pleaseeeeee

2009-09-23T22:35:00.003+08:00

I want a big, fat SMILEY pillow for my birthday!

I'm probably too stressed that I make such statement but hey, smileys keep us all happy.

WHY NOT?

And I'm giving one right now. =)

Hope it does cheer you up and give you the strength that you need.

If that's not enough, here's another one. :)

Happy Studying and all the best to everyone for your upcoming finals/midterm tests/assignments/whatever.

Backstreet's back!!

2009-09-12T16:31:00.004+08:00

Yup, you read it right. BACKSTREET BOYS is back!!! With their new album called This Is Us.

This is their new single, Straight Through My Heart. They will be holding an album listening session in Singapore on 24th September.

Hope their album will be a great one after so long. *fingers crossed*

...Life...

2009-09-08T01:38:00.002+08:00

Got a bad news just when everything seemed perfect.

It's the second time I've got this in less than 6 months,

I wonder how much more my heart can take this.

I couldn't bear the pain of losing anyone, anymore.

Especially my beloved ones.

My tears had run dry,

have I become heartless or too numb to it?

Who would have seen this coming?

Life is so fragile.

Learn to appreciate it,

and live every second to the fullest.

Live without regrets

and be grateful with what you have.

Being at home...

2009-08-26T22:36:00.006+08:00

It's only mid-week,

and here I am, sitting at home and staring at my laptop.

Classes for the rest of the week were cancelled which explains why I am at home now.

It felt so good to be home.

Sis got me a brownie from Secret Recipe,

which is just what I needed.

It really cheered me up,

amidst all the things that are bothering me.

And not to forget the home-cooked delicious meals by mom.

Somehow I have to solve the problems,

but knowing that I will always have my loved ones with me,

it's so calming.

So what if I had screwed up my midterm test?

Or had a terrible week because my plans were all messed up.

Now that my mind is clearer,

I think I know what to do.

Life is too short to worry so much

so let's just get things over and done with,

once and for all.

Just waiting for the right time to come

and gathering all the courage I need.

Wish me luck till then.

What to do?

2009-08-25T10:55:00.003+08:00

I wish I could let go of everything, yet I couldn't.

Tell me what to do, when your mind tells you to stop, your heart tells you to go on?

I want everything to be be in place, like what I had imagined, if only that was possible....

*An excerpt from an entry I had in my other diary. Describes exactly what I'm feeling now. Been holding on for too long, keeping it all in, now it's time to let go. But HOW?

Yet Another Trip...

2009-08-23T15:43:00.009+08:00

Finally found some time to sit and blog on a lazy Sunday afternoon in Cyberjaya. I never like the idea of staying over in hostel for the weekend. Miss the luxuries of being at home but this week is an exception for I could have some time of my own.

Been away for a while. So here goes some updates on my well-being.

Just a few days after the trip to the waterfall, I was on another trip again. This time to Genting Highlands and Bukit Tinggi with my coursemates. It was meant to be a trip for all of us to chill out and in conjuction with our mid-semester break.

Had dim sum at Sri Petaling in the morning right after our last class of the week before departing to Genting. Reached there around 1pm and our adventure in the theme park begun immediately.

Us girls...

We went to check in to our hotel after an hour in the theme park only to find out that we need to book the rooms 2 weeks in advance for the package that we were using.

Still in a state of being shocked, we had no choice but to cram all 9 of us to a room. Despite the fact that the room was too small to fit all of us in, we still had fun. It was a day of rides and more rides. Next on our itinerary was visit to the karaoke for our dinner. A dinner and 2 hours of karaoke for only RM 18 per person, it was definitely worth it. Of course the day didn't end just there. We went for a movie before calling it a day.

Dinner & Karaoke, 2 in 1...

Second day was more of sightseeing as we took a stroll in the Colmar Tropicale Village and Japanese Garden in Bukit Tinggi. The place was still being developed as a tourist spot. Nevertheless, it did offer some great sceneries and a perfect place to escape the hustle and bustle of city life.

View of the Colmar Tropicale Village(aka French Village) from far

Flowers! Love them...

Basically, it's just a street with French-like buildings

Wonderful designs

The walk in Japanese Garden was relaxing, with beautiful green surroundings.

The Japanese Garden
Japanese House

It has a spa too, if you need a massage.

The spa

It's a place to visit if you want to relax your mind and a breath of fresh air. It was indeed a wonderful trip with such a great company. Looking forward to more trips with them.

Convo 2009

2009-08-23T14:30:00.001+08:00

Congratulations upon your graduation, my dear sister. Am so proud of you. =)

May you achieve greater success in the future.

And congrats to the others who have officially graduated too!

Trip to Waterfall

2009-08-04T23:47:00.003+08:00

Just noticed the lack of updates. Been out and about searching for love... love for mother nature,that is (okay, I know it's not funny, was just trying to make things interesting).

Been busy with midterm tests and juggling with a messed up timetable and meetings, and also life in university without my sis. I was totally stressed up to the point that I go jogging every week which is something I never do unless I had too much on my mind.

So I jumped at the opportunity to go to Chiling Waterfall. And there we were, on 26th July, trotting up the hill.

This is where the journey begins....

At the foot of the hill...

1st river crossing...

The journey up the hill was not an easy task. There were many obstacles along the path and we had to cross the river 5 times before we reach the waterfall. The rocks were slippery, and some of us almost slipped and fell. The journey took about an hour, and by the time we reached the waterfall, we were all tired and hungry.

Hold on to whatever you can, because the rocks are slippery.

But it was well worth it. The waterfall is so beautiful, the place was so quiet and peaceful, definitely a good getaway from the hustle and bustle of city for the weekend. And did I mention the water was very chilling? (No wonder it was given the name Sungai Chiling-don't take it for real, it's just my assumption)

The waterfall

It was indeed a place worth a second visit. Can't wait to visit the place again!

Let me love again

2009-07-15T00:04:00.003+08:00

At this moment

I just want to fall in love again.

Don't ask me why,

because I don't know the answer.

Look on the brighter side...

2009-07-07T11:03:00.005+08:00

Woke up this morning feeling so tired but great at the same time. Had the best sleep ever in days, probably too tired from jogging and a sleepless night.

Or should I say I felt so much better after talking to friends, friends who can offer some advice which is one of the reasons why I never keep things to myself (except for secrets and matters which require privacy,of course).

It may not be the easiest thing to solve, after all the troubles I've caused to the people I cared for so much, and I really want to apologize for what I've done.

And after all the conflicts, the least I could do is offer an apology.

Glad to say it didn't take away what is best left of a person. Still believing that each and everyone of them is still who they are, and let's just say that it may have caused changes in the friendships but I believe it will change for the better.

No one wants to see people wearing a mask. Let yourself be revealed because that's the foundation of a strong friendship.

Now you see the real me, it's either you hate me or you like me.

And I'm trying to be a better person, still learning to be one and hoping that I would be good enough to keep all my friends.

Whatever it is, everyday is a new day.

p/s: Thanks for the advice and concern, you guys know who you are. =)

May all of you have a wonderful week. =)

*It has always been me, vinyee*

Silence may be the best policy

2009-07-06T00:51:00.005+08:00

One of the things I learnt lately is, sometimes, it's better to remain silent. I chose to tell because I believe that honesty is the best policy. That's how the saying goes. But it didn't apply all the time, at least not this time around.

I tried to listen to both sides of the story, but at the end of everything, I decided to stay neutral because I don't want to take sides and ruin the friendships we had. If a person is offended, there's no point in trying to convey the message because he or she won't be able to justify what you are trying to say.

I see things more clearly now though I do not have the right to justify whoever is right or wrong. Life has taught me to see who's real and who's not. I might have chosen to stand by this person not because this person is somewhat special, but it's because I believe that deep down,he is a good person but certain things had changed my perception.

It's best to just let it be...you can't change the way a person think unless the person decided to. If this person can't accept what is being conveyed, then it doesn't make any difference whether I did tell or not. A person cannot take in anything when one is ignorant and emotional.

I chose to remain silent, not because I agree, but because I felt it doesn't make a difference in continuing with the discussion. And just so you know, I want to walk away and stay out of anything that has got to do with you. I don't want to ruin the best that's left of you.

And just so you know, I'm trying to mend the friendships you had with the people so close to you and here you are, doing nothing but breaking and ruining it.

Some things are better left unsaid, after all.

*End of story*

Of Orientation 2009/2010

2009-07-01T14:40:00.008+08:00

Couldn't believe it's already July. The past 6 months seemed like a year to me, so much has happened, learnt so much along the journey. Stepping into my 3rd year in university, I just couldn't believe how much I've changed. The person who used to have a well-organised life and everything done to perfection is now a person who is having dinner at odd hours and sleeping in the afternoons and hanging out with friends at nights.

Need to change to get my life back on track. Without my sis around in university, I have lost part of my self-discipline. She's been so protective of me and now that I'm on my own, I have to hold on strong to myself and the values I carry in order to gather myself and stay focused on my studies.

Life after orientation is totally upside down. Went to suppers almost every night for the past 2 weeks and all those late nights are taking its toll on my body. I needed to take a break and get some rest. No doubt, I do love the whole committee, but it's time to stop myself from being around them too much.

It made me realised how much I miss my coursemates-nowadays I barely spend my time with them. They are really important to me and made a great part of my life.

I miss the good old days of suppers too...where there were only few of us hanging out at mamak stalls talking just about anything. I really hope the few of us can sit at the mamak stall like we used to be. Maybe it's just me who missed those day because others seem to have move on with new found friends. I remember this poem my friend wrote to me:

Make new friends,
Keep the old,
For one is silver,
The other is gold.

Old friends are gold to me...I treasure each and everyone of them. AND I treat the new friends equally too.

Orientation was awesome, it taught me so much and I've met so many wonderful people, among the committee itself and the freshies, each with their own unique characteristics. These people do inspire me sometimes, and they taught me how to look at life in different perspectives.

The orientation itself may not have been a very successful one, with a few glitches here and there but at the end of the day, it is what we learnt that matter. I've never regretted being part of the committee and I hope for the best in the coming years.

With that, I'm signing off with some of the photos from binding camp and orientation.

My group for binding camp-TX

With my group of freshies-Group 6
The girls....
The boys...

Hope to get my life back to normal again, having mamak sessions with the few close friends, no more late nights out till the wee hours of the morning and blah, I have to start studying!!

~vinyee~

Life.Photography.

2009-06-24T13:00:00.003+08:00

If I were to choose a word to describe life, it would be photography. Life is like photography, each and every moment is captured in the mind. The happy moments, the days you cried, the memorable moments and the incidents that made great impacts in your life.

The fact that we may choose the pictures we keep made life so similar to photography. Most of us would love to keep only the pictures of happy moments, erasing all the unwanted images out of our lives. The only thing that distinguished life from photography is that erasing the unwanted images from the camera takes only moments, but erasing the unwanted images from memory requires a lot of courage and time.

Success is equivalent to the beautiful shots you get once in a while, after the numerous trials and errors, learning from mistakes in the process.

At times, we come to a point where we are lost, just like a blurred picture. The images are so unclear, so we adjust and adapt, to get the picture that we want. And so does it apply to real life, we adjust and adapt to different situations, trying to get the best out of things.

It does not matter if the pictures you own now are not of the greatest collection, it is how you are going to capture the rest of your life that matters. Make the photos a collection that you will be proud of, because you are the one who directs it, no one else can.

New beginning...

2009-06-22T22:00:00.003+08:00

For a fresh start, I revamped my blog to mark the beginning of another new academic year.

It's a new beginning,
the ending to the past,
the start of a new chapter,
with so many more chapters to come
and life is up to how I am going to write the coming chapters.

Hope this coming year would be the most memorable and wonderful one. Or I will try my best to make it the best year I had in my life.

Hoping for the best! *fingers crossed* =)

It's just me being me again,
~vinyee~

Last day of finals...

2009-05-29T12:08:00.002+08:00

Finally, my finals is over!! With that, it officially marks the end of my second year in uni. Gosh, how time flies. It's time to close another chapter of life and start a new one.

Browsed through some of the older entries in my blog and I totally miss year 2008. It has been a great year if not the best. Looking back, I'm more of an extrovert back in 2008 but now it seems that my blog has gone a bit dull and filled with lots of misery which I didn't like at all.

Hope to find my cheerful self once again and revive my blog. *wink*

Anyways, with only 3 days left for me to rejuvenate myself before I'm back in uni for orientation, I want to enjoy my so-called holidays to the max. Movie and shopping, anyone?

Until then, Happy Holidays!!

More updates soon! =)

If only...

2009-05-27T11:33:00.003+08:00

I want to turn around and walk away,

There's only so much that I can take

If only I know how...

A note to myself

2009-05-24T20:17:00.003+08:00

Lots of things running through my mind at the moment. And I'm having my finals. So, I stuck this note in front of me to keep myself focused on my studies. It helped. A lot. Try it!!

All the best to everyone having their finals!!

A short one...

2009-05-08T03:05:00.006+08:00

Here's a short update. As finals is just around the corner, I won't be able to update much.

So much has happened lately but I was glad that I managed to take some time out to meet my high school friend, Poh Wei last Saturday. He was back from Indonesia for a week and will be leaving for Australia in June.

Though I felt reluctant to meet up with him initially because of what was going on in my family, I was glad I did. I felt so much better after that. It's always good to surround yourself with someone positive, because you too will have a different outlook on life and remain positive.

And the best thing of all, I got a chance to try my hands on his new Canon DSLR 450D. Too bad I wasn't good at photography, I couldn't get the effects which he had been teaching me. Some other time maybe?

See the blurred background effect? I can never do that...don't know why. Haha.

Wonderful shot

Compare these two pics...his shot is so much better compared to the one I took of him.

Even discovered that it was his first time to Old Town. Couldn't believe it but he had been in Indonesia for almost 3 years. So it was not surprising at all. And he is now on his way to becoming a doctor and an amateur photographer.

Check out some of awesome shots of the Putrajaya bridge he took here.

Wishing him all the best in his journey to becoming a doctor.

All in a week...

2009-05-04T11:09:00.020+08:00

Dealing with the loss of someone really close to your heart is hard. So hard that I couldn't bring myself to accept the fact that she would be gone forever. Imagine losing someone who saw you grew up for the past 22 years. It was so sudden, so unexpected, especially so when I thought I had the greatest week ever.

Monday, 27th April

The week started off bizarrely. Surprisingly, it didn't affect me much. Most probably due to the fact that I was too occupied with my Taxation midterm paper. The paper was tough, but I didn't feel bad or miserable at all. In fact, I felt so relieved that all the midterm papers are finally over.

Tuesday, 28th April
Tuesday has a been a wonderful day. I was alone in Advanced AIS class as most of my friends decided to use the time to finish up their assignments. The lecturer was half an hour late but just as everyone was about to leave the class, she walked in through the door. I quickly messaged my friend, Sushi telling her lecture was on as usual.

Halfway through our session, the lecturer decided to give us a 30-minute break. My friend and I couldn't help but think of the Old Town breakfast as both of us were hungry. So off we went, a spontaneous decision, and it was a filling breakfast indeed. Managed to get back to class on time. It was so fun. Never left the campus and went out to other places during breaks. Maybe we should try this more often. =p

Chiew Shi (a.k.a Sushi) & I
Delicious and filling breakfast @ Old Town

The weird and funny incident...

Right after our class, as we were about to leave, an international student stopped us near the door and asked if we are Malaysians. We stared at each other blankly. He was looking for help for his Bahasa Kebangsaan(Melayu) quiz. We thought we heard it wrongly. Seeing the puzzled expression on our faces, he quickly led the way to his class and explained everything to us.

They are having a quiz and it was an open book test. They couldn't understand the language and needed some help. As we stepped inside the class, we were shocked to see a class full of international students. I was so nervous and scared to have offered to help as the lecturer was checking on the students.

My heart almost jumped out when she walked by, fearing that she could tell that I wasn't one of her students. I quickly quoted all the answers in the book and left the class. The quiz was so easy!!! It was more like reading comprehension but for them, it's tough as they don't know much about the language. I wish that finals would be that simple.

What a funny and weird thing to do. I used to hate cheating in exams and those who did it, but here I am, helping out someone I don't even know in their quiz. And the best thing of all, the lecturer didn't even know or bother about what was going on.

Wednesday, 29th April

Moving on, I only have less than 24 hours to finish up my Audit report due on Wednesday, starting from scratch. I was amazed that my group did it on time, rushing to print and bind the report on the day of submission itself. Love the efficiency we have, a result of the chemistry we had most likely due to the numerous assignments we had done together.

It's been a tiring week, yet some of my coursemates decided to go skating after our classes. Decided to skip the outing as I have ice-breaking session for the Orientation Committee that very night. Ice-breaking was fun and one of the most memorable moments as we had to go through the whole session without power supply. The whole campus was experiencing power supply disruption. Needless to say, we went for a scavenger hunt in total darkness.

Thursday, 30th April

Was desperate for a place to bathe after the ice-breaking. And my mobile phone's battery was flat when I needed it the most. Luckily my laptop was fully charged and the thing I love most about Sony Ericsson is that you can charge it using USB cable. Such a genius invention. If not, I'd be stuck in hostel. Managed to call Sushi and decided to stay over at her place. Battery went flat again after that. I must have been the luckiest person that day.

Had a great shower and a wonderful sleep (although it was only a 3-hour sleep) at her place after a week of an average 3-hour sleep per day. We went for dim sum 7.30 in the morning at Kuchai Lama. It's been a long time since we last went for one.

Wonderful dim sum @ Kuchai Lama with the greatest friends ever

Love them all...

My energy level was at a level so low that I took a nap the moment I was done cleaning up my room after the breakfast.

Woke up in the afternoon when my sis broke the bad news that my aunt just passed away. It was so devastating. I couldn't control myself and cried, for the longest time ever.

Death is part of the things that we will face in life. Yes, my aunt may be gone forever, but deep in my heart, she will always be remembered,loved and respected. I was glad that she didn't suffer from any diseases or ilnesses.

It has been such a long week, and looking back, life has a way of telling you that it has so much more to offer. It seems like those wonderful days prior to the unexpected news was a way of telling you that life is great if you are optimistic enough. It's as if a way of softening the effect of the loss that I am about to face, so that I know that even though life may be harsh sometimes, there are still other things that make life beautiful and that I should appreciate them more. Those were the days that I enjoyed life most, and that was the period I was really contented with life.

Life has so much to offer. To stop in your tracks, not wanting to move on, you will miss out on the greater things that are to come. True happiness lies in making the best out of life and living it to the fullest, one without regrets.

Having said that, I know that I am now on the way to recovery.

I have finally found myself again, having lost the tough inner me to the hectic life.

Glad to say, vinyee is back.

My confessions

2009-04-23T07:56:00.003+08:00

I couldn't remember when was the last time I really cried. It's been so long. Probably a year ago or even longer than that. Until yesterday, when I shed my tears again after a deep heart to heart sharing with my sis.

It's wasn't because of the hard feelings we had after the sharing, in fact we didn't have any. It was because I realised how ignorant a sister I've been. I really appreciate it that she finally voice out what has been on her mind all along. After guessing for so long, I finally see the truth and the end to what I've been talking about in all the posts I have removed.

The missing piece of puzzle now completes the whole picture which should have been completed long ago. It explains everything, why she chose not to tell me about what has been going on around her circle of friends and left me searching for the answers on my own.

I was ignoring her feelings even though I could tell that she didn't like what I was doing. It didn't take me long to notice, but I ignored what I had observed because she had chosen not to tell me about it for fear of offending me.

But I would have preferred it if she had told me earlier on how she felt. I'm not as fragile and naive as I used to be, and I understand you... And I do respect you and what you think. We are sisters, and I am willing to share just about everything. All you have to do is open up your heart.

It breaks my heart to know that you have been so protective of me, and chose to keep it all to yourself. All I wanted to tell you is that I've no hard feelings whatsoever on your thoughts, your act is not of selfishness and I would appreciate it even more if you would open up your heart a little bit more and let me know how you feel from now on.

I still love you no matter what.

Thank you for all the wonderful friends you have brought into my life.

Feel like crying my heart out... hate the complicated feelings...

Complicated...

2009-04-21T19:58:00.006+08:00

Complicated feelings...

don't know where to start

so worried that I won't be able to do well for the coming midterm

not even halfway through what is covered for the test

clueless about the major assignment due next week

so lost....

and my mind was on something else

someone told me something

couldn't agree with her

but am curious to find the truth

part of me wishes its true

part of me don't

let me find the answer please...

because I can't concentrate if I don't.

Listen to Family Tree by Michael Learns to Rock. Fell in love with it the moment I heard it.

Short update

2009-04-17T15:45:00.003+08:00

Miss blogging so much. There's only one word in my dictionary now. Busy, busy and busy. It's been a stressful week, and it's at times like this that I stop and reflect on the past. It gives me the strength and motivation to move on.

It's a quarter into the year, and here I am, savouring every moment of life. I don't push myself as much as I used to do, trying my best to strive for the best grades which is a good thing, because pushing myself too hard only make my life more miserable.

Love the time I spent with my coursemate, the outings with them (the spontaneity they bring makes my life even more exciting than it could have been), love the late night suppers, love the wonderful friends my sister have brought into my life.

They are the people who made my life, showed me how to enjoy life and laugh at my own silly mistakes. I am more than contented with life at the moment though I still hesitate every now and then.

And the only thing I wish to do now is to have more fun and enjoy life rather than keep myself to the books. I'm finally letting myself loose.

Will be back with more photos and what's been happening for the past few months. Until then, have a wonderful weekend. =)

Blessing in disguise

2009-04-07T13:48:00.008+08:00

I didn't like the idea of 3 persons in a room back when I first found out I have a new roommate moving in on the first week of February after having a peaceful stay with only one (and current) roommate for more than half a year. It meant we had less space, more things in the room and less freedom. Nevertheless, I learnt to accept a new friend in our room but we rarely talked.

Yesterday, we had a deep sharing, talking about proms, hairstyles, and other girlie stuff and it was really great. We chatted for more than 2 hours, the longest conversations we've had ever since the new roommate moved in. This is one nice girl after all.

Today, I learnt to appreciate a her even more. I forgot to bring my room key out this morning as I was running late for class. As I was about to go back to my room, I messaged my long-time roommate but she was in class. So I tried my luck if the new roommate was in. And I was glad she was. As I opened the hallway door leading to my room, I saw her walking towards the toilet.

I quickly called her name and requested for the key. A mixture of feelings ran through my heart, I was glad that she was here, relieved that I wasn't locked out of my room and embarrassed with how I treated her.

I wasn't very friendly with her yet she was happy and willing to help. And she didn't even complain much even though we had the lights on till the wee hours of morning while she beared with it and slept with the lights on.

It's such a shame that I even had thoughts of not wanting to share the room with her. I may have less space and freedom, but to have one extra person to share everything with, perhaps it's a blessing in disguise. I shall learn to appreciate things more.

Knowing and not knowing

2009-04-02T23:35:00.005+08:00

I don't know what prompt me to write this, maybe it's because of life itself. Lately, I find it hard to hide my feelings. Sometimes, I just don't understand why people want to keep things secret when others already know what was going on. It made me feel stupid and irritated, because I know what I see and feel is true, yet someone who knows what was going on denies it.

Pardon me for being such an idiot, for being so straightforward, but I say what I see or feel because I care for a person and not because I was trying to make fun or anything. To put things in a different perspective, it may be because they have promised to keep things secret. But when things are too obvious, isn't it better to be made clear rather than letting it get out of control?

Sometimes I wish I could just know less, hear less, see less. Because the more I know, the more curious I get. I may not be the perfect listener, but I am willing to listen all the time. And I am willing to share, if only you are willing to share.

Or maybe it's just destiny that some things are not meant to be known by you. It's part and parcel of life. You may want to be the next listener, to be there for someone, but you can only be that person if only you are chosen to be.

As for now, I can do nothing. Let things pass me by and wish that I could be more insensitive. For a moment in my life, I wish I could be more insensitive. Or knowingly act unknowingly. Maybe for a better change, who knows.

April Fool:Bully-fiable

2009-04-01T16:02:00.004+08:00

Bullyfiable. Word of the day.

Originates from the word bully, it is used to described someone who is being bullied every now and then and yet they never get angry or irritated easily. They may be mad for a few hours at most and shrug it off after that.

What a creative word from the-always-cheeky-and-full-of lame-jokes-guy. This is the most recent used word after stalker.

What a great bunch of coursemates I have. Funny and so unexpected. They are always full of new words and ideas. Hanging out with them makes your world go upside down but I'm enjoying this craziness. Love them all. (*hugs*)

Happy April Fool, peeps!! =)

2 stitches

2009-03-26T23:12:00.005+08:00

If there is one thing I fear the most, it would be going to the dentist. I made a visit to the dentist yesterday to get my tooth extracted. The last time I went to a dentist was almost 10 years back to get my tooth removed and ever since then, I never went to one because it had been so painful.

However, this one can't be avoided as the tooth grew in the wrong place and it is best to be removed or it requires surgery if the condition worsens. The extraction wasn't as painful as expected, because of the effect of anaesthesia but I did feel a little sharp pain once in a while and the pressure of the machine was so great that I jerked.

It took quite a long time to get the tooth out because the tooth was long, and has a little hook at the bottom. Even the dentist said he was shocked to see such a long one. I thought everything was fine by then but he said the wound was too deep and gave me two stitches, on my gums!!(ouch!). Nah, I didn't feel anything at all, not until I get home.

My gums felt so numb and weak and I couldn't chew at all. All I could eat were steamed vegie, tofu, bread and porridge. I miss those days of eating everything I like. But now, I am so lazy to even eat because I couldn't chew properly, and it takes double the amount of time I usually use to have a meal to get everything finished. Totally lost my appetite.

Can't wait till I get my stitches off next Friday. By then, I can talk and eat all I want, like normal again. Anyways, here's the tooth...(I know it's gross, just bear with it k?)

My gigi!!

I'm back

2009-03-19T16:08:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps. Been away for a while due to some problems with my lappie. I was so desperate to get it repaired few days back and I'm glad it's back to normal though I'm still trying to get used to the new settings. It was such a torture to be disconnected from the internet for the past few days.

Promise to come back with more updates soon. I have a few long due updates but assignments, tests and events took up all my time.

What a day...

2009-03-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

What a day...

I woke up to a hot and stuffy room because the power supply at my desk where my fan was placed was cut off at 2am in the morning and I was sweating so much I couldn't even sleep.

Started my day badly, the water dispenser nearest to my room wasn't working so I had to walk further to get water.

Ordered cater food only to have myself standing like a fool for half an hour waiting for the person to deliver food and to discover one of the dishes is pork. After starving for one whole day, is this how I'm treated? No, I don't eat pork. Not even a slice of it. Great! Vegetarian for a day.

Went to make myself a good cup of mushroom soup but again the water dispenser is not functioning. Ended up drinking a cup of I-don't-even-know-if-it's-half cold-or-half-warm-salty-drink.

And I was starving...up until this moment because the person owing me supper refused to go and buy me one. We argued for almost an hour when I never intended it in the first place. What a great way to end a crappy day!! What's worse to come?

Looking forward to a better crappy day!

Good day peeps!!!!

All the way from Korea

2009-03-04T12:32:00.004+08:00

Let's take a wild guess on what this is. I am not a fan of Korean products whatsoever but girls have to love this.

It looks like a yoyo...

but what's inside is actually a mirror...

and a comb.

Comes in handy especially when it is made in a shape of the compact powder case that girls usually have one in their bags. Saves up lots of space. =p

Love it! And the owner is none other than my lovely ex-roomie.

This is what you actually do when you have 3 hours of boring lecture. Sorry, no offence but 3 hours of lecture starting at 8am? This is the least you can do to keep yourself awake.

Thanks.....

2009-02-21T18:30:00.004+08:00

Finally found a light in the darkness.

Thanks for all the advices (you know who you are).

Thanks for putting me in a different perspective.

It made me feel so much better.

Hoping for a better tomorrow.

After all, it's part and parcel of life.

~End of story~

Shame on me

2009-02-18T13:40:00.002+08:00

She walks by alone, thoughts running through her mind...
I could tell what she has been thinking
yet I do not have the courage to face her
because I am the one who caused the chaos
I feel so guilty, so sorry
I wanted to apologize
but the word 'Sorry' wouldn't come out of my mouth.

Suddenly she seems to be so far away,
could it be that she's trying to distant herself from all of us
the so-called friends who just betrayed her?
who wanted to be with her whenever they need her
and leave her out when they deemed her to be of no importance?

Shame on me for being such a person
shame on the so-called friend who used to be so nice to her
and is now totally ignorant of her feelings.

How much can this girl actually take?
How much is she holding back?
Has she lost her trust and belief in us?
How long does it take to mend a broken heart?
To repair a wreaked friendship?

I hate myself for being so self-centred
So much of my wanting to be a good friend
I am just another lousy friend
All I can do now is hope and pray
That someday she will forgive and forget
And stay with us until the very end...

Am really sorry from the bottom of my heart...

Untitled...

2009-02-11T00:12:00.005+08:00

Currently suffering from writer's block which explains the lack of updates.

It's time to pick up the pieces, gather myself and take charge of life again, life as a student that is.

Feel so complicated right now. I'm going out on my own on a lot of things. It's like floating in an ocean so wide with nothing to hold on to.

The tight group of coursemates I used to hang out with are all taking different subjects and different paths. I felt so insecure without them around.

Time to learn to be independent and take control of life. Time to learn to believe in myself.

It's that time of the year again, the time when love is all around. Yes, it's Valentine's. This is going to be yet another lonely year, at least for me. Seeing most of my friends in love, I felt so happy for them yet envy at the same time.

Would like to have my other half to be by my side too for this Valentine's if only I can find mine... When will I meet my other half, the one I can count on to be there for me, to share my happiness and sadness?

And am missing God's presence too, suddenly. I just want to reach out to Him and be lost in His embrace.

I just want to be lost in my own thoughts before finally getting back to the real world again so that I can be back stronger with a more positive outlook.

~Will be back soon. No worries. =) ~

Happy Valentine's Day.

Lost in my own thoughts... let me find myself again...

.....

2009-02-02T15:26:00.003+08:00

I feel like screaming my head off and I want to scream out loud, and I mean really loud. Nothing can express my disappointment. I didn't get an A for E-commerce but I expected to do better than what I had gotten and it affected my almost perfect results greatly. It was even worse than the subject I feared most, Public Sector Accounting.

It's so unbelievable. 30% of students got an A for E-commerce but I'm not one of them. It means I'm not good enough. Not as intelligent as what everyone assumed me to be. I am so disappointed with myself. I am not that good after all.

And to make matters worse, I came back from lunch today on the first day of a new semester to find out that I have a third roommate moving in. I wanna scream!!!!!!!!!!!!! Two in a room is comfortable but the room is too small to accommodate three. Maybe I've been too pampered to share a room with just one roommate. You may say that I am exaggerating but whoever stayed in the hostel before should know how it felt.

Speechless for now. Hope things will get better. HOPE, Hope, hope........

Giant Lollipop

2009-01-21T23:20:00.003+08:00

Saw this huge lollipop on sale at KLIA Low Cost Carrier Terminal (LCCT). At the price of RM 45, I wonder if there's anyone who would purchase it. On second note, it costs only RM 29 in Langkawi. Never seen these lollipops on sale in any hypermarkets. My wild guess is that the lollipop is for you to savour while waiting to board the flights.

But by the time that person finishes the whole lollipop, he or she will be diabetic! Talk about marketing strategies.

A Walk Down the Memory Lane

2009-01-17T23:30:00.004+08:00

It's only 11.30pm and I feel so tired. Just came back from a trip yesterday and I can't wait to update my blog. Having been disconnected from the cyberworld for a week, it feels weird and took me some time to get used to it again.

It's time to finally wrap up year 2008. Didn't really have the time to reflect on the previous year until after my finals and after a tiring trip. This year, I'm gonna take a look back on my 21 years of life instead of the past year.

My first 17 years have been of smooth sailing, everything went my way and I managed to live up to my parents' expectations. From then onwards, things started to change and I began to feel what real world is like.

The year I turned 18...
It was a blend of bitterness and sweetness... I failed my driving test on the first try, maybe because I was too nervous. I managed to pass on my second try just before I left for National Service. I really didn't like the idea of National Service and to know that I was selected, I couldn't help but felt like the unluckiest person. And it was even worse as my parents were in China the day I departed for National Service. I was appointed to a camp in Bintulu, Sarawak. Got myself seriously injured on the ankle and have to use crutches for a few days after that. Was back to KL safely just in time for form 6 registration. Honestly, I hated it so much. Form 6 was really tough and I got into no-talking terms with my dad because of our different views on tertiary education. He wanted me to complete form 6 and I wanted to enrol myself in a private university. I couldn't remember crying so much in my life. This is one unforgettable year.

2006
Completed STPM, as what my dad had wished. Didn't really study much and put in much efforts because I lost my passion to study. It was a year where I felt really lost and had no particular direction of where I should go next.

2007
A year of self-discovery. Worked for almost half a year while waiting for my STPM results and university intakes. Learned a lot from the working world. STPM results was a bit disappointing and not up to what all my teachers and parents expected. I was disappointed with myself too, I could have done better. Was given a place to study engineering in University Tun Hussein Onn(UTHM), a local university. Enrolled myself in MMU and decided to stay there even though I was offered the course I wanted because I've never heard of the university before. Made an unexpected decision to change my course to Accounting because I discovered engineering wasn't right for me. It was the toughest decision to make and I am glad to have an understanding dad who supported the decision I made even though he really wanted me to go on and not to give up on sciences.

2008
Exciting and fun-filled year. Was involved in organising a prom for the first time and had a wonderful time working with the committee. A memorable experience from organising uni prom. Met a bunch of cool coursemates at the beginning of the year and love hanging out with them. Got to know some really nice and friendly Greenies from Green Club. Given the responsibility to organise a carnival and learnt a lot from it. A stressful year too, as studies gets tougher. Lost a paternal uncle and although we are not that close to each other, I still miss his presence. It made me realised how short life is and not to take things for granted.

Upon reflection
Looking back, I was lucky to be selected for National Service and sent to Sarawak, as what I've wished because I have never been on a plane before. So, being sent to Sarawak was a good experience after all. I got a chance to be on a flight and meet some wonderful friends. Not everyone is able to experience it. And having studied form 6 made me a more mature person. I learned that life is not always the way you wanted it to be. I changed a lot over the years, from a person who fears of uncertainties to a stronger person who faces obstacles with more determination. Learned to look at things from different perspectives. Things happen for a reason and you won't learn unless you fail.

2009 Resolutions
I have plenty of resolutions but these are the main priorities:

To solve the unresolved issue with the unethical house owner so that my parents can have one less problem to worry about (it's a long story and I really want it to be settled as fast as possible because it is bothering everyone at home)
To maintain my CGPA
To be a better person- there is room for improvement, I hope I can be a nicer and more generous person
To curse less- to minimize the usage of words like sh**, damn, wth, etc.
To live life to the fullest- worry less and enjoy each and everyday of life, let go of being such a perfectionist and be just who I am.

Sorry for the lengthy post. This is to officially wrap up 2008. Next post onwards, it's going to be less personal and I will try to keep the words minimal. That's all for now.

Wishing each of you a great year ahead. =)

Let Go

2009-01-11T01:15:00.004+08:00

I need to learn how to let go...

to let go

someone once told me

that I shouldn't let go no matter what

to never give up

because one can only succeed

by not giving up

but lately I'm too tired

too tired to get hold of things

that I should loosen my grip

and learn to let go

let go of the things

that are not worthy for me to hold on to...

2nd Semester Officially Comes to An End

2009-01-09T21:56:00.005+08:00

I think I'm the last person among my coursemates to update my blog. While everyone else decided to update their blogs after a tough paper on Tuesday, I took the time to take a nap to forget everything about the exam.

Finally, finals is officially over!! What a way to start a new year. This is the toughest one I've ever had, with Public Sector Accounting(PSA) being the most difficult paper I've ever sat for. Felt so relieved it was over. After 3 sleepless nights, 2 weeks in hostel and several tasteless meals, it felt so good to be home again. Miss the comfort of home, miss mom's cooking.

And thanks to Pau Besar for spamming my SMS inbox to keep me awake so that I can study. I spent 2 times the amount I spent for a month in the past 2 weeks just SMS-ing. ><

It's been one crazy semester. Glad I managed to pull through despite the feeling of wanting to take a supplementary paper initially because I couldn't handle them.

Gotta catch some ZzZs now!!

Before that....

This is especially to my dearest coursemates: Mr. Patrick, our beloved E-commerce lecturer said he had finished marking our paper and to ease all your tension so that you guys can have a wonderful holiday and Chinese New Year, here's good news for all of you. He said we had almost 30% of distinction. So, let's hope we are one of them!!

~Looking forward to my Langkawi trip!!!~

Exam stress

2009-01-03T09:57:00.011+08:00

I am one heck of a grumpy person

because I am sleep-deprived

and I still have a lot more to study

for the coming finals.

Stressed!!!!!!!

Disruption of water supply in hostel.

*DOUBLE grumpiness* (as at 1.30pm)

You Made Me CRY

2009-01-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

He made me cry, on new year itself. I couldn't believe it! He got me well on this one. I never thought I would be fooled on 1st of January. First day of a new year. You spoiled my day!

He came online with a message that our tutor did not receive our final report of our group assignment. And then he told me we are getting a zero for that. I was so taken aback that I couldn't think of anything but to ask him if the tutor would give us another chance. Beg her, cry in front of her. Whatever. It's already bad enough to get 8 out of 15 for midterm test, and to get a zero for our assignment? That means only 8 out of 35 for coursework.

The thought of it just made me cry. I was so worried trying to get all the facts in for the coming finals and to receive such news before finals, I just couldn't take it anymore. And there he was, laughing it off. How could he do that to me??

Man, I HATE him for this.

NICE one NG KOK HONG.

Someday I'll get back at you.

WATCH OUT.

Happy 2009!!!

2009-01-01T02:28:00.008+08:00

Happy New Year!!!

Welcome to the year of 2009!

My first entry for 2009.

New Year celebration was a bit different this year. While everyone was rushing to countdowns happening at shopping centres and tourists' destinations such as Bukit Bintang and The Curve, we went against the flow to a quiet place called Putrajaya for dinner. It was a last minute plan with some of the Greenies and their friends.

We headed to Alamanda for dinner at Nando's and went shopping until it closes before leaving for Old Town to usher in the new year. It was fun. And different.

New Year at Old Town. What a nice way to celebrate. It doesn't matter where the place is, it's the people that you are with that matters.

This new year brings new things, people and experiences to my life.

I went shopping with guys for the first time ever since enrolling in MMU. Boy, were they more fussy than us girls. I got myself something in 10 minutes but they were still in the same shop after 1 hour still deciding and trying on the clothes.
Had New Year Eve dinner with some of the people I don't know for the first time. Got to know them better over the meals.
Made some new friends for New Year. =)

And the first thing we did for New Year? Played basketball at Old Town's basketball court. Never really expected to do that. And it has been 5 years since I last played basketball.

Happy to have their company for New Year, macho guys! (By the way, some of them are still available. So, do not hesitate to contact me if you are interested. =p)

I felt so blessed to be able to celebrate it with my friends. I could recall sitting for a paper last new year eve and celebrating last new year with my coursemates at Old Town playing monopoly until 4am in the morning. Couldn't understand why MMU always had to arrange our exams around new year but it never dampens my spirits.

Glad I put aside my studies for a while. Really enjoyed spending the night with some funny guys and most important of all, my dear sis!!

Hope there are greater things to come. Can't wait to discover what is in store for me for the year 2009. Wishing everyone a great year ahead with heaps of blessings and better health!

With Love,
-vinyee-

Mind Games...ME

2008-12-29T21:23:00.005+08:00

I should be studying but after a tiny chat with a friend of mine, it prompted me to blog. He made a little comment about me and my mind games.

No doubt about that, I like playing mind games. I posted up this entry "I think I've finally found him" a few days back and it was about the type of guy I have been searching for. Yes, I think I have finally found what I have wanted out of a guy, but I haven't met him yet. It was something like Thanks For the Memories by Cecilia Ahern if you have read the book- you fell in love with a guy you have never met before, somewhere out there.

Apparently, a lot of people has been asking me who it is. And this friend of mine kept bugging me to tell him who the guy is. And he ended up getting confused. I twisted the facts, made him believed that I have someone in my mind, turned him around and basically playing mind games with him because I was too bored from studying. I am not sure if he believed what I have said but judging from his suggestion that I should lower my guard or people find it difficult to hack into my heart, I guess he really believed it. *laughs evilly*

Yes, I do like playing mind games. Most of the time, people don't get what I'm thinking because I use my mind to feel and to learn about things. And it explains why I like getting to know people and I learn about people quickly because from understanding how human brains work, it helps you to know a person quickly, without having to spend much time because you know the way the person thinks. And thus my nosiness. (Sorry if you find me too talkative at times, I just can't help but trying to find out how things work)

SO, if you have been wondering who this guy is, he is someone I have never met before but he is the definition of the guy I am looking for. And thanks for your little comment, my friend. I have removed the post because of all the confusion I have created.

The Word Spinster

2008-12-27T23:04:00.008+08:00

Here's a conversation that is worthy to be remembered especially when it happened on a Christmas Eve.

"What do you call an unmarried woman? My lecturer asked me this question today. I know a man who's single is called bachelor. What do you call a female then?"

"Hmm, a bachelorette?"

"Is there such word? I'm not sure."

"You know what I answered?"

"What?"

"A virgin." (Everyone in the car burst into laughter)

"My lecturer said an unmarried person doesn't mean he or she is a virgin. It's true. So what do you call an unmarried woman?" (SO TRUE)

"Do you mean an old, unmarried woman?"

"Yeah."

"It's called spinster."

"Ohhh yah!!! Spinster. That's the word!"

-Everyone forgets words once in a while-

And this one is to commemorate my 100th entry. Cheers!!!

(By the way, my the strap on my flats broke while I was shopping for shoes with my dearrie friend, Su Sean. And I couldn't even get a pair of nice sneakers after practically searching for them at every available shoes' shop in Mid Valley. Luckily mom brought me to a shop near my house and managed to get me a pair of nice sneakers! And it's baby blue!!! Love it!!!)

The Past 2 weeks...

2008-12-26T17:41:00.006+08:00

Finally, I have the time to blog. Finished up my biggest project of the year, Movie Buff for Human Resource. I have no idea how movies are related to Human Resource in any ways but it is a fact that the lecturer has decided that by doing the assignment, we can understand Human Resource concepts better. Funny huh? I watched some boring movies and was impressed how I managed to stay awake watching the movies despite the fact that I only got an average of 2 to 3 hours per day. But it got me reading the textbook. So, it was a beneficial assignment after all. And I got to watch the movies I have not seen before- we picked Bee Movie and The Guardian.

Anyways, I was glad all the assignments are done. The past 2 weeks have been a crazy one, especially last week. Here's the schedule:

15th-17th -Cyberpreneurship project (preparation starts 4am) 9am-6pm

17th-Cyberprenuership presentation (1.10pm)

17th- Public Sector Accounting midterm (7 chapters and it is the first time I didn't manage to cover all the chapters included in an exam, I think I am going to fail this one)

18th-E-commerce individual and group assignment submissions(stayed up one whole night after my test to finish up the assignments)

18th-E-commerce presentation

18th-Human Resource weekly test

I wonder how could do all those things all in a few days time. Impressive. I felt so relieved that my final project is over now. It's time for some retreat. First things first, to get my hair cut. Went for a haircut today and it was so sad to see my hair being cut. I never kept my hair too long, wonder why.

And now it's short again...

My hairdresser says it's best to keep my hair messy (the first time I heard such thing) to create the illusion of hair volume. He said my face is too thin and I need some hair volume to make it look rounder. The funny thing is that he kept asking me why am I so thin and if I don't eat much. Funny how I never feel so.

Am so looking forward to meeting up with my friend tomorrow. Gonna shop, shop and shop. It's time to recharge after a tiring month. And did I mention that my group earned RM13.60 per person for our Cyberpreneurship Project? It may be too little for some of you but at least we earned some profit. 2 days of sales and an overall profit of RM170++. It's considered good.

Look out for more updates!!

This Is Me

2008-12-22T00:01:00.003+08:00

If there is only one word to describe me, it would be nosy. I have to admit that I love getting to know people in depthly, listen to them talking about just anything and just by doing so, it brings joy to me. Maybe it's the fact that I once longed to be a psychologist that brings out this side of me. Well, I am not one who pokes at people's personal affairs like there is no boundaries. I am curious to know more but I will never go above the limits.

If there is anyone who would like to talk about their problems, I would be more than glad to lend my ears. I want to know everything, anything. I find satisfaction in being able to find out how things work and it is something that drives me to think.

But lately, I am so lost. I don't know what I am doing most of the time. I couldn't think through things and I am not performing at the level that I should be at this time of the year. So much has been going on in my life that I find no time for myself at all. Assignments, tests, projects, personal problems and ongoing problems at home (long story on the irresponsible and unethical house owner). I wish I could stop in emptiness, a place filled with darkness and nothing else, where all my worries would all be erased with the darkness.

This song kept playing in my mind. I have no idea why. Maybe it expresses how I felt at this moment.

This Is Me
Demi Lavato

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the darkT
o dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of meI need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Let's all hope that a new year would bring a new beginning to everyone, more adventures, more to be discovered and more to be appreciated. May the sweet memories of 2008 remain and may 2009 be a better year to look forward to for more sweet memories to be crafted upon your hearts.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. =)

Kakiis Nite Out

2008-12-20T00:42:00.005+08:00

Was invited by WL to attend an event on the 13th. I didn't know anything about the event until I reached the place and told that it was held at Euphoria (yeah, you read it right, the newest clubbing scene in KL). I couldn't understand why they chose the place of all the places. It was a kakiis event, the first ever held in Malaysia. They had some great prizes to be won such as Sony PSP, Nintendo Wii and more. Had lots of fun there even though we didn't manage to win any prizes. I was glad that I went and put aside my studies for a while.

The welcome sign...

Met Su Hao at the event...was so surprised to see him there.

The spirited ones, with the word kakiis spelt on their shirts.

Dip your leg in the pool filled with ice cubes and added with salt and search among the stones with alphabelts to spell the word kakiis. The water was freezing cold, my feet was numb after the game.
Su Hao & his friends won a 16GB pendrive each...but we went home empty handed.

Love this Christmas tree decorated with purple ornaments. Beautiful!!

Thanks for the invitation. Hope that there are more to come.

Do check out kakiis.com if you wanna know more.

Let's Celebrate Xmas!

2008-12-10T14:14:00.006+08:00

It's that time of the year again! A time where the festivities set in, a time for celebration and when everyone is in jolly mood. It's December!! Lightings and decors are up in malls, each trying to outshine the other with their impressive decors but the one that appeals to me most has to be the one in Bangsar Village.

The decor in Bangsar Village, so eco-friendly. The materials consist of used bottles.(Now you see why I like it so much!!)
Even the pillars there are beatifully decorated. Love the silvery, snowy-effect!!

The Xmas decor in Mid Valley.

The hanging shopping bags. So CUTE!!!
A gingerbread house decoration contest held in Bangsar Village. These are some of the artwork from participants.
Love this one for the snow on the roof. Shows some creativity.

And last but not least, I couldn't resist buying this Xmas decor for myself. It's so nice! Love it! =p

There ain't no reasons not to love Christmas! Til then, Merry Christmas!!!

Stay tuned...

2008-12-05T03:08:00.002+08:00

Finally, RMMU Carnival is over!! HOORAY!!! I can enjoy my sleep now!!

Updates and pics coming soon.

Stay tuned to my my blog (haha, been using too much of DJ terms, can't think of any other suitable word).

Getting my ZzZs now!

Short Update

2008-12-04T09:31:00.004+08:00

Got a surprise call from dad last night. My parents went to Malacca to check on my little brother, and he called to check if I want to go home on Thursday night since I don't have classes on Fridays. The sweetest part is that he even asked about the carnival which I'm organising. And I was thinking of home when he called. Mom and dad always know best when I miss my home sweet home (when I'm tired or stressed out) and they call at the perfect time.

*Just another short update. More updates coming soon. Been a bit busy lately.*

Looking forward to this weekend. Can't wait for the week to be over soon. I really miss my home.

Cent-less Boy & His Story

2008-11-28T15:16:00.003+08:00

Mr Pau Besar(Big Bun) has gotten himself a new nickname, Cent-less Boy. It all started with Human Resource when he said the word ASSUME and the lecturer came up with a sentence out of it AS*-U-ME. Get what I mean? If not, try this one.

Pau Besar said he is INNOCENT, which in other words, he is IN-NO-CENTs or penniless. So I gave him another new name, Centless Boy because he kept saying he is IN-NO-CENT.

Pity him, he's been trying hard to cheer everyone up after what happened yesterday. I could see it very clearly. I know he felt sorry, I know he felt bad that he made us quarrelled, I know he does. I know he didn't mean to raise his voice but he did all in the name of frustration. It made everyone feel annoyed. That was it.

Thank you for trying to correct the situation(thanks for the ice cream too), for all the efforts that you have put in to mend the friendship but right now, there is nothing we can do to get her to talk to us again. I do appreciate you as a good friend, and I really wish all of us could stay as good friends for the remaining two and a half years of our course. After that, we will be going our separate ways and I feel so sad when I come to think our what happened between all of us, we don't have much time left to hang out together. We have half a year of internship, remember?

Too bad what has been done couldn't be undone. All I could do is hope, hope that someday they would speak to each other again and forget this whole incident which happened because of a tiny misunderstanding or miscommunication.

Mend my broken heart and make me smile again, if only all of us would talk to each other like we used to be.

Team?...Not!

2008-11-28T00:06:00.004+08:00

Been staring at the blank word document on my laptop screen for the past hour. I couldn't think of anything. My mind is as blank as the white word document before my eyes. I hate it. I have never experienced this before, no matter how blank I am, I always managed to come up with something.

I hate doing group assignments, especially when people start arguing mostly because of some misunderstandings. And everyone cannot function thereafter, not knowing what to do, not knowing who to discuss the problems with, and there is totally no communication between the members at all.

Enough said.

I just wanna cry.